take 2

I've been on hiatus, this probably explains my minimal reader base... anyway, a thousand apologies all the same. I'm not entirely sure where to begin --  I lasted almost 2 years in Florida before I decided I had had enough fun in the sun. Admittedly, Florida never really felt like it fit. I'm sure in…

destiny –

How does someone find a purpose or a destiny in life? As I inch closer to 30 each year I feel a certain sense of pressure whether internal or external, that I need to figure it out and have it all. My friends all seem to have a plan and even if they don't have…

FL. – one year {intermission}

I have re-started this article so many times because I'm not sure how to begin or what to write about as I enter into year 2 of my Florida adventure. It's been such a strange year full of downs and ups and stagnant moments. It's been depressing, exciting, passionate, thrilling, and often lonely. As I…

the women in my house –

I'm in the spare room of my house that I converted into a studio at the insisting words of grandma. Lana Del Rey plays and I light the stick of sage I grew myself and let the smoke and aroma fill the room. Next to me is a spare bed my mom gave me on…

FL. – muse applications

I've been here for 10 months. I've been meaning to write a Florida Rewind for the past 2 months. As you can see, I've been dragging my feet. Lately I'm in a creative block and I feel that I have nothing to express. I haven't written poetry in months. I stare at this blog trying…

{self} love –

I never used a dating site until 2 years ago. Until that point, I never felt that I needed one.  From the ages of 16 to 22, I was in 2 long term relationships the latter being long distance. Ultimately what ended both relationships was my need for freedom. I had the same conversations with both…

consider this –

Being of no particular religious association, I decided to practice Lent this year. I can see the value is abstaining from unhealthy or self destructive habits. I decided I would not eat added sugar as I had been developing a very nice junk food habit and was beginning to measure the success of such habits by…

FL. – six months

6 Months... The fuck? I'm sitting in a little hipster coffee shop, where everyone talks with upward inflection like everything's a question. An irritation that reminds me so much of the coffee shops back home. You take the good with the bad. Coldplay is streaming through the speakers on this lazy Thursday afternoon and I'm staring…

divorce –

My parents divorce has had a profound effect on me and my view of the world and relationships. The effects of demise of my parents marriage set a ripple through my entire family and has in many ways left it fractured in ways it may never be repaired.

singularity –

I've always felt like a loner. Partly because I genuinely enjoy my own company and also because my social anxiety can be rather paralyzing at times. I don't understand how to flirt with people and am of the weird sort that likes just talking to people in a regular sort of way. Maybe everyone feels weird around other people.